ESP 366 Testimony

I would like to say something. Before coming to the very first class I read QBQ and something started to change. I actually do not like this kind of book because they usually say the same thing, but QBQ was like a scolding. I had that victim feeling (and I still have sometimes) but I started to ask why. Why am I a victim? Who is my torturer? And the answer for these questions was me. I tried to fit myself in standards that I would never be appropriate; I tried to be somebody else. Why? Finally, I did not have a plausible answer for this question. I had some, actually, but none could justify the victim feeling.

I realized finally that I would not be frustrated if I try to be myself, act the way I do, and do not care about it. I tried a couple of times and many other things were built in my mind ever since. I could see my face, I could like it and I could see the entire way I had walked to be here. Each day my image looks more polished, more powerful to me. I feel like I had unchained my soul and now I am becoming everything I wanted: Free. Sometimes I still try to chain myself in somebody else`s image, since this kind of change does not happen in a couple of days, but now I know what was wrong with me. I will have to experience many failures and disappointments to become more confident of this image I discovered, but it is easier when you know that you can only fit yourself.

I know that it is not about brushing your teeth with the left hand, but I definitely feel something different going on in my brain, and I would like to share it with you.